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iedtofeelhertouch,hearhervoice,andwhenididtearswouldfillmyeyesbecauseididn'tknowifiwouldbeabletoholdheragain.thiswasnothowi'dimagineditwouldend.i'dalwaysassumediwouldgolast.

idriftedinandoutofconsciousnessfordaysuntilanotherfoggymorningwhenmypromisetoalliespurredmybodyonceagain.iopenedmyeyesandsawaroomfullofflowers,andtheirscentmotivatedmefurther.ilookedforthebuzzer,struggledtopressit,andanursearrivedthirtysecondslater,followedcloselybydr.barnwell.

"i'mthirsty,"isaidwitharaspyvoice,anddr.barnwellsmiledbroadly.

"welcomeback,"hesaid,"iknewyou'dmakeit."

twoweekslateriamabletoleavethehospital,thoughiamonlyhalfamannow.therightsideofmybodyisweakerthantheleft.this,theytellme,isgoodnews,fortheparalysiscouldhavebeentotal.sometimes,itseems,iamsurroundedbyoptimists.

thebadnewsisthatmyhandspreventmefromusingeithermycaneorwheelchair,soimustmarchnowtomyownuniquecadencetokeepupright.notleft-right-leftasinmyyouth,oreventheshuffle-shuffleoflate,butratherslow-shuffle,slide-the-right,slow-shuffle.iamonanepicadventurenowwhenitravelthehalls.

whenireturntomyroom,iknowiwillnotsleep.ibreathedeeplyandsmellthespringtimefragrancesthatfilterthroughtheopenwindow.thereisaslightchillintheairandifindthatiaminvigoratedbythechangeintemperature.evelyn,oneofthemanynurseshere,helpsmetothechairbythewindow.sheputsherhandonmyshoulderandpatsitgently.shesaysnothing,andbyhersilenceiknowthatsheisstaringoutofthewindow.thensheleansforwardandtenderlykissesmeonthecheek.

"it'sgoodtohaveyouback.allie'smissedyouandsohavetherestofus.wewereallprayingforyoubecauseit'sjustnotthesamearoundherewhenyou'regone."shesmilesatmeandtouchesmyfacebeforesheleaves.isaynothing.

thestarsareouttonightandthecricketsaresinging.asisit,iwonderifanyoneoutsidecanseeme,thisprisonerofflesh.isearchthecourtyard,lookingforsignsoflife,butthereisnothing.eventhecreekisstill.inthedarknessitlookslikeemptyspaceandifindthati'mdrawntoitsmystery.iwatchforhours,andasidoiseethereflectionofcloudsonthewater.astormiscomingandintimetheskywillturnsilver,likeduskagain.

lightningcutsthewildskyandifeelmyminddriftback.whoarewe,allieandi?areweancientivyonacypresstree,tendrilsandbranchesintertwinedsocloselythatwewouldbothdieifwewereforcedapart?anotherboltandthetablebesidemeislitenoughtoenablemetoseeapictureofallie,thebestoneihave.ihaditframedyearsagointhehopethattheglasswouldmakeitlastforever.ireachforitandholditinchesfrommyface.shewasforty-onewhenitwastaken,andshehadneverbeenmorebeautiful.therearesomanythingsiwanttoaskher,butiknowthepicturewon'tanswer,soiputitaside.

ifinallystandandwalktomydeskandturnonthelamp.thistakesmoreeffortthanithinkitwill,andiamstrained,soidonotreturntothewindowseat.isitdownandspendafewminuteslookingatthepicturesonmydesk.familypictures,picturesofchildrenandvacations.picturesofallieandme.

sincethisseemstobeanightofmemories,ilookforandfindmyweddingring.itisinthetopdrawer,wrappedintissue.icannotwearitanymorebecausemyknucklesareswollenandmyfingerslackforblood.iunwrapthetissueandfinditunchanged.itispowerful—asymbol,acircle—andiknow,iknow,therecouldneverhavebeenanother.iwhisperaloud,"iamstillyours,allie,myqueen,mytimelessbeauty.youare,andalwayshavebeen,thebestthinginmylife."

itiseleventhirtyandilookforthelettershewrotetome,theoneireadwhenthemoodstrikesme.ifinditwhereilastleftit.iopenitandmyhandsbegintotremble:

dearnoah,

iwritethisletterbycandlelightasyouliesleepinginthebedroomwehavesharedsincethedayweweremarried.iseetheflamebesidemeanditremindsmeofanotherfirefromdecadesago,withmeinyoursoftclothes,andiknewthenwewouldalwaysbetogether,eventhoughiwaveredthefollowingday.myhearthadbeencapturedbyasouthernpoet,andiknewinsidethatithadalwaysbeenyours.whowasitoquestionalovethatrodeonshootingstarsandroaredlikecrashingwaves?forthatiswhatitwasbetweenusthenandthatiswhatitistoday.

iremembercomingbacktoyouthedayaftermymotherleft.iwassoscaredbecauseiwassureyouwouldneverforgivemeforleavingyou.iwasshakingasigotoutofthecar,butyoutookitallawaywithyoursmile."howaboutsomecoffee?"wasallyousaid.andyouneverbroughtitupagaininallouryearstogether.

nordidyouquestionmewheniwouldleaveandwalkaloneduringthenextfewdays.whenicameinwithtearsinmyeyes,youalwaysknewwhetherineededyoutoholdmeortojustletmebe.idon'tknowhowbutyoudid,andyoumadeiteasierforme.later,whenwewenttothesmallchapelandexchangedourringsandmadeourvows,ilookedintoyoureyesandknewihadmadetherightdecision.morethanthat,iknewiwasfoolishforeverconsideringsomeoneelse.ihaveneverwaveredsince.

wehadawonderfullifetogether,andithinkaboutitalotnow.iclosemyeyessometimesandseeyouwithspecklesofgreyinyourhair,sittingontheporchandplayingyourguitarwhilelittleonesplayandclaptothemusicyoucreate."you'reabetterfatherthanyouknow,"itellyoulater,afterthechildrenaresleeping.

iloveyouformanythings,especiallyyourpassions:loveandpoetryandfatherhoodandf

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