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e.sheiscrying.ismileandreleaseherhand,thenreachinmypocket.itakeoutahandkerchiefandwipeathertears.shelooksatmeasidoso,andiwonderwhatsheisthinking.

"thatwasabeautifulstory."

alightrainbeginstofall.littledropstapgentlyonthewindow.itakeherhandagain.itisgoingtobeagoodday,averygoodday.amagicalday.ismile,ican'thelpit.

"yes,itis,"itellher.

"didyouwriteit?"sheasks,hervoicelikeawhisper.

"yes,"ianswer.

sheturnstowardsthenightstand.hermedicineisinalittlecup. minetoo.littlepills,colourslikearainbowsowewon'tforgettotakethem.theybringmineheretoherroomnow,eventhoughthey'renotsupposedto.

"i'vehearditbefore,haven'ti?"

"yes,"isayagain,justasidoeverytime.ihavelearnedtobepatient.

shestudiesmyface.hereyesareasgreenasoceanwaves.

"itmakesmefeellessafraid,"shesays.

"iknow."inod,rockingmyheadsoftly.

sheturnsaway,andiwaitsomemore.shereleasesmyhandandreachesforherwaterglass.shetakesasip.

"isitatruestory?"shesitsupalittleinherbedandtakesanotherdrink.herbodyisstillstrong."imean,didyouknowthesepeople?"

"yes,"isayagain.icouldsaymore,butusuallyidon't.sheisstillbeautiful.

sheaskstheobvious."well,whichonedidshefinallymarry?"

ianswer,"theonewhowasrightforher."

"whichonewasthat?"

ismile."you'llknow,"isayquietly,"bytheendoftheday.you'llknow."

shedoesnotquestionmefurther.insteadshebeginstofidget.sheisthinkingofawaytoaskmeanotherquestion,thoughsheisn'tsurehowtodoit.

abirdstartstosingoutsidethewindowandwebothturnourheads.wesitquietlyforawhile,enjoyingsomethingbeautifultogether.thenitislost,andshesighs."ihavetoaskyousomethingelse,"shesays.

"whateveritis,i'lltrytoanswer."

"it'shard,though."

shedoesnotlookatmeandicannotseehereyes.thisishowshehidesherthoughts.somethingsneverchange.

"takeyourtime,"isay.iknowwhatshewillask.

finallysheturnstomeandlooksintomyeyes.sheoffersagentlesmile,thekindyousharewithachild,notalover.

"idon'twanttohurtyourfeelingsbecauseyou'vebeensonicetome,but..."

iwait.herwordswillhurtme.theywilltearapiecefrommyheartandleaveascar.

"whoareyou?"

wehavelivedatcreeksideextendedcarefacilityforthreeyearsnow.itwasherdecisiontocomehere,partlybecauseitwasnearourhome,butalsobecauseshethoughtitwouldbeeasierforme.weboardedupourhomebecauseneitherofuscouldbeartosellit,signedsomepapers,andreceivedaplacetoliveanddieinexchangeforsomeofthefreedomforwhichwehadworkedalifetime.

shewasrighttodothis,ofcourse.thereisnowayicouldhavemadeitalone,forsicknesshascometous,bothofus.weareinthefinalminutesinthedayofourlives,andtheclockisticking.loudly.iwonderifiamtheonlyonewhocanhearit.

athrobbingpaincoursesthroughmyfingers,anditremindsmethatwehavenotheldhandswithfingersinterlockedsincewemovedhere.iamsadaboutthis,butitismyfault,nothers.itisarthritisintheworstform,rheumatoidandadvanced.myhandsaremisshapenandgrotesquenow,andtheythrobthroughmostofmywakinghours.buteverydayitakeherhandsdespitethepain,andidomybesttoholdthembecausethatiswhatshewantsmetodo.

althoughthebiblesaysmancanlivetobeahundredandtwenty,idon'twantto,andidon'tthinkmybodywouldmakeitevenifidid.itisfallingapart,steadyerosionontheinsideandatthejoints.mykidneysarebeginningtofailandmyheartrateisdecreasingeverymonth.worse,ihavecanceragain,thistimeoftheprostate.thisismythirdboutwiththeunseenenemy,anditwilltakemeeventually,thoughnottillisayitistime.thedoctorsareworriedaboutme,butiamnot.ihavenotimeforworryinthistwilightofmylife.

ofourfivechildren,fourarestillliving,andthoughitishardforthemtovisit,theycomeoften,andforthisiamthankful.butevenwhentheyaren'there,theycomealiveinmymindeveryday,eachofthem,andtheybringtomindthesmilesandtearsthatcomewithraisingafamily.adozenpictureslinethewallsofmyroom.theyaremyheritage,mycontributiontotheworld.iamveryproud.sometimesiwonderwhatmywifethinksofthemasshedreams,orifshethinksofthematall,orifsheevendreams.thereissomuchaboutheridon'tunderstandanymore.

"myname,"isay,"isduke."ihavealwaysbeenajohnwaynefan.

"duke,"shewhisperstoherself,"duke."shethinksforamoment,herforeheadwrinkled,hereyesserious.

"yes,"isay,"i'mhereforyou."andalwayswillbe,ithinktomyself.

sheflusheswithmyanswer.hereyesbecomewetandred,andtearsbegintofall.myheartachesforher,andiwishforthethousandthtimethattherewassomethingicoulddo.

shesays,"i'msorry.idon'tunderstandanythingthat'shappeningtomerightnow.evenyou.whenilistentoyoutalkifeellikeishouldknowyou,butidon't.idon'tevenknowmyname."shewipesathertearsandsays,"helpme,duke,helpmerememberwhoiam.oratleast,whoiwas.ifeel

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