水果不用冰箱的保存方法

tisawondericanseeit,buticanbecausethesunisbright.

"caspianstern,"isaysoftly,andwedevoteourattentiontoitasitglidesoverbricescreek.and,likeanoldhabitrediscovered,whenilowermyarm,iputmyhandonherkneeandshedoesn'tmakememoveit.

sheisrightaboutmyevasiveness.ondayslikethese,whenonlyhermemoryisgone,iamvagueinmyanswersbecausei'vehurtmywifeunintentionallywithcarelessslipsofmytonguemanytimesthesepastfewyears,andiamdeterminednottoletithappenagain.soilimitmyselfandansweronlywhatisasked,tolimitthepain.therearedayssheneverlearnsofherchildrenorthatwearemarried.iamsorryforthis,butiwillnotchange.

doesthismakemedishonest?perhaps,butihaveseenhercrushedbythewaterfallofinformationthatisherlife.couldilookmyselfinthemirrorwithoutredeyesandquiveringjawandknowihaveforgottenallthatwasimportanttome?icouldnotandneithercanshe,forwhenthisodysseybegan,thatishowibegan.herlife,hermarriage,herchildren.herfriendsandherwork.

thedayswerehardonbothofus.iwasanencyclopedia,anobjectwithoutfeeling,ofthewhos,whatsandwheresinherlife,wheninrealityitisthewhys,thethingsididnotknowandcouldnotanswer,thatmakeitallworthwhile.shewouldstareatpicturesofforgottenoffspring,holdpaintbrushesthatinspirednothing,andreadlovelettersthatbroughtbacknojoy.shewouldweakenoverthehours,growingpaler,becomingbitterandendingthedayworsethanwhenitbegan.ourdayswerelostandsowasshe.

soichanged.ilearnedwhatisobvioustoachild.thatlifeissimplyacollectionoflittlelives,eachlivedonedayatatime.thateachdayshouldbespentfindingbeautyinflowersandpoetryandtalkingtoanimals.thatadayspentwithdreamingandsunsetsandrefreshingbreezescannotbebettered.butmostofall,ilearnedthatlifeisforsittingonbenchesnexttoancientcreekswithmyhandonherkneeandsometimes,ongooddays,forfallinginlove.

"whatareyouthinking?"sheasks.

itisnowdusk.wehaveleftourbenchandareshufflingalonglightedpathsthatwindtheirwayaroundthiscomplex.sheisholdingmyarmandiamherescort.itisherideatodothis.perhapssheischarmedbyme.perhapsshewantstokeepmefromfalling.eitherway,iamsmilingtomyself.

"i'mthinkingaboutyou."

shemakesnoresponsetothisexcepttosqueezemyarm,andicantellshelikeswhatisaid.ourlifetogetherhasenabledmetoseetheclues,evenifshedoesnotknowthemherself.igoon:"iknowyoucan'trememberwhoyouare,butican,andifindthatwhenilookatyouitmakesmefeelgood."

shetapsmyarmandsmiles."you'reakindmanwithalovingheart.ihopeienjoyedyouasmuchbeforeasidonow."

ithinkaboutthisaswewalkinsilence,holdingeachother,pasttherooms,pastthecourtyard.wecometothegarden,mainlywildflowers,andistopher.ipickabundle—red,pink,yellow,violet.igivethemtoher,andshebringsthemtohernose.shesmellsthemwitheyesclosedandshewhispers,"they'rebeautiful."weresumeourwalk,meinonehand,theflowersinanother.peoplewatchus,forweareawalkingmiracle,orsoiamtold.itistrueinaway.

bythetimewereachthedoorway,iamtired.sheknowsthis,soshestopsmewithherhandandmakesmefaceher.ido,andirealizehowhunchedoverihavebecome.sheandiarenowlevel.sometimesiamgladshedoesn'tknowhowmuchihavechanged.sheturnstomeandstaresforalongtime.

"whatareyoudoing?"iask.

"idon'twanttoforgetyouorthisday,andi'mtryingtokeepyourmemoryalive."

willitworkthistime?iwonder,thenknowitwillnot.itcan't.idonottellhermythoughts,though.ismileinsteadbecauseherwordsaresweet.

"thankyou,"isay.

"imeanit.idon'twanttoforgetyouagain.you'reveryspecialtome.idon'tknowwhatiwouldhavedonewithoutyoutoday."

mythroatclosesalittle.thereisemotionbehindherwords,theemotionsifeelwheneverithinkofher.iknowthisiswhyilive,andiloveherdearlyatthismoment.howiwishiwerestrongenoughtocarryherinmyarmstoparadise.

"don'ttrytosayanything,"shetellsme."let'sjustfeelthemoment."

andido,andifeelheaven.

herdiseaseisworsenowthanitwasinthebeginning,thoughallieisdifferentfrommost.therearethreeotherswiththediseasehere,andtheyarethesumofmypracticalexperienceofit.they,unlikeallie,areinthemostadvancedstagesofalzheimer'sandarealmostcompletelylost.theywakeuphallucinatingandconfused.theyrepeatthemselvesoverandover.seldomdotheyrecognizethepeoplewholovethem.itisatryingdisease,andthisiswhyitishardfortheirchildrenandminetovisit.

allie,ofcourse,hasherownproblems.sheisterriblyafraidinthemorningsandcriesinconsolably.sheseestinypeople,likegnomes,ithink,watchingher,andshescreamsatthemtogetaway.shebatheswillinglybutwillnoteatregularly.sheisthinnow,muchtoothininmyopinion,andongooddaysidomybesttofattenherup.

butthisiswherethesimilarityends.thisiswhyallieisconsideredamiracle,becausesometimes,justsometimes,afterireadtoher,herconditionisn'tsobad.thereisnoexplanationforthis."it'simpossible,"thedoctorssay,"shecannothavealzheimer's."butshedoes.onmostdaysandeverymorningtherecanbenodoubt.

butwhy,then,isherconditiondifferent?whydoesshesometimeschangeafteriread?itellthedoc

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