水果不用冰箱的保存方法

torsthereason—iknowitinmyheart,butiamnotbelieved.fourtimesspecialistshavetravelledfromchapelhilltofindtheanswer.fourtimestheyhaveleftwithoutunderstanding.itellthem,"youcan'tpossiblyunderstanditifyouuseonlyyoursciencetrainingandyourbooks,"buttheyshaketheirheadsandanswer:"alzheimer'sdoesnotworklikethis.withhercondition,it'sjustnotpossibletohaveaconversationorimproveasthedaygoeson.ever."

butshedoes.noteveryday,notmostofthetime,anddefinitelylessthansheusedto.butsometimes.andallthatisgoneonthesedaysishermemory,asifshehasamnesia.heremotionsarenormal,herthoughtsarenormal.andthesearethedaysthatiknowiamdoingright.

dinneriswaitinginherroomwhenwereturn.ithasbeenarrangedforustoeathere,asitalwaysisondayslikethese,andonceagainicouldaskfornomore.thepeopleherearegoodtomeandiamthankful.

thelightsaredimmed,theroomislitbytwocandlesonthetablewherewewillsit,andmusicisplayingsoftlyinthebackground.thecupsandplatesareplasticandthecarafeisfilledwithapplejuice,butrulesarerulesandshedoesn'tseemtocare.

sheinhalesslightlyatthesight.hereyesarewide."didyoudothis?"

inodandshewalksintotheroom.

"itlooksbeautiful."

ioffermyarminescortandleadhertothewindow.shedoesn'treleaseitwhenwegetthere.hertouchisnice,andwestandclosetogetheronthiscrystalspringtimeevening.thewindowisopenslightlyandifeelabreezeasitfansmycheek.themoonhasrisenandwewatchforalongtimeastheeveningskyunfolds.

"i'veneverseenanythingsobeautiful,i'msureofit,"shesays.

"ihaven't,either,"isay,butiamlookingather.sheknowswhatimeanandiseehersmile.

amomentlatershewhispers:"ithinkiknowwhoalliewentwithattheendofthestory."

"who?"

"shewentwithnoah."

"you'resure?"

"absolutely."

ismileandnod."yes,shedid,"isaysoftly,andshesmilesback,herfaceradiant.

shesitsandisitoppositeher.sheoffersherhandacrossthetableanditakeitinmine,andifeelherthumbbegintomoveasitdidsomanyyearsago.istareatherforalongtime,livingandrelivingthemomentsofmylife,rememberingitallandmakingitreal.ifeelmythroatbegintotightenandonceagainirealizehowmuchiloveher.

myvoiceisshakywhenifinallyspeak.

"you'resobeautiful,"isay.icanseeinhereyesthatsheknowshowifeelaboutherandwhatireallymeanbymywords.

shedoesnotrespond.insteadshelowershereyesandiwonderwhatshe'sthinking.shegivesmenocluesandigentlysqueezeherhand.iwait.iknowherheartandiknowi'malmostthere.

andthenamiraclethatprovesmeright.asglennmillerplayssoftlyinacandlelitroom,iwatchasshegraduallygivesintothefeelingsinsideher.iseeawarmsmilebegintoformonherlips,thekindthatmakesitallworthwhile,andiwatchassheraisesherhazyeyestomine.shepullsmyhandtowardsher."you'rewonderful..."shesayssoftly,andatthatmomentshefallsinlovewithme,too;thisiknow,forihaveseenthesignsathousandtimes.

shesaysnothingelserightaway,shedoesn'thaveto,andshegivesmealookfromanotherlifetimethatmakesmewholeagain.ismileback,withasmuchpassionasicanmuster,andwestareateachotherwiththefeelingsinsideusrollinglikeoceanwaves.ilookabouttheroom,thenbackatallie,andthewayshe'slookingatmemakesmewarm.andsuddenlyifeelyoungagain.i'mnolongercoldoraching,orhunchedoveroralmostblindwithcataracts.i'mstrongandproudandtheluckiestmanalive,andikeeponfeelingthatwayforalongtime.

bythetimethecandleshaveburneddownathird,iamreadytobreakthesilence.isay,"iloveyoudeeplyandihopeyouknowthat."

"ofcourseido,"shesays."i'vealwayslovedyou,noah."

noah,ihearagain.thewordechoesinmyhead.noah...noah.sheknows,ithinktomyself,sheknowswhoiam...

sheknows....suchatinything,thisknowledge,butformeitisagiftfromgod,andifeelourlifetimetogether,holdingher,lovingher,andbeingwithherthroughthebestyearsofmylife.

shemurmurs,"noah...mysweetnoah...”

andi,whocouldnotacceptthedoctors'words,havetriumphedagain,atleastforamoment.igiveupthepretenceofmystery,andikissherhandandbringittomycheekandwhisperinherear:"youarethegreatestthingthathaseverhappenedtome."

"oh...noah,"shesayswithtearsinhereyes,"iloveyou,too."

ifonlyitwouldendlikethis,iwouldbeahappyman.

butitwon't.ofthisi'msure,forastimeslipsbyibegintoseethesignsofconcerninherface.

"what'swrong?"iask,andheranswercomessoftly.

"i'msoafraid.i'mafraidofforgettingyouagain.itisn'tfair...ijustcan'tbeartogivethisup."hervoicebreaksasshefinishes,butidon'tknowwhattosay.iknowtheeveningiscomingtoanendandthereisnothingicandotostoptheinevitable.inthisiamafailure.

ifinallytellher:"i'llneverleaveyou.whatwehaveisforever."

sheknowsthisisallicando,forneitherofuswantsemptypromises.

thecricketsserenadeus,andwebegintopickatourdinner.neitheroneofusishungry,butileadbyexampleandshefollowsme.sh

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