水果不用冰箱的保存方法

solost."

ianswerfrommyheart,butilietoherabouthername.asihaveaboutmyown.thereisareasonforthis.

"youarehannah,aloveroflife,astrengthtothosewhosharedinyourfriendships.youareadream,acreatorofhappiness,anartistwhohastouchedathousandsouls.you'veledafulllifeandwantedfornothing,becauseyourneedsarespiritualandyouhaveonlytolookinsideyou.youarekindandloyal,andyouareabletoseebeautywhereothersdonot.youareateacherofwonderfullessons,adreamerofbetterthings."

shedoesnotrespond.insteadshestaresatmeforalongwhile,untilourbreathingcoincides.in.out.in.out.in.out.deepbreaths.iwonderifsheknowsithinkshe'sbeautiful.

"wouldyoustaywithmeawhile?"shefinallyasks.

ismileandnod.shesmilesback.shereachesformyhand,takesitgentlyandpullsittoherwaist.shestaresatthehardenedknotsthatdeformmyfingersandcaressesthemgently.herhandsarestillthoseofanangel.

"come,"isayasistandwithgreateffort,"let'sgoforawalk.theairiscrispandthegoslingsarewaiting.it'sbeautifultoday."iamstaringatherasisaytheselastfewwords.sheblushes.itmakesmefeelyoungagain.

shewasfamous,ofcourse.oneofthebestsouthernpaintersofthetwentiethcentury,somesaid,andiwas,andam,proudofher.unlikeme,whostruggledtowriteeventhesimplestofverses,mywifecouldcreatebeautyaseasilyasthelordcreatedtheearth.herpaintingsareinmuseumsaroundtheworld,butihavekeptonlytwoformyself.thefirstonesheevergavemeandthelastone.theyhanginmyroom,andlateatnightisitandstareandsometimescrywhenilookatthem.idon'tknowwhy.

andsotheyearspassed.weledourlives,working,painting,raisingchildren,lovingeachother.iseephotosofchristmases,familytrips,ofgraduationsandofweddings.iseegrandchildrenandhappyfaces.iseephotosofus,ourhairgrowingwhiter,thelinesinourfacesdeeper.alifetimethatseemssotypical,yetuncommon.

wecouldnotforeseethefuture,butthenwhocan?idonotlivenowasiexpectedto.butiamnotbitter.ourlivescan'tbemeasuredbyourfinalyears,ofthisiamsure,andiguessishouldhaveknownwhatlayahead.lookingback,isupposeitseemsobvious,butatfirstithoughtherconfusionunderstandableandnotunique.shewouldforgetwheresheplacedherkeys,butwhohasnotdonethat?shewouldforgetaneighbour'sname,butnotsomeoneweknewwellorwithwhomwesocialized.sometimesshewouldwritethewrongyearwhenshemadeouthercheques,butagainidismisseditassimplemistakesthatonemakeswhenthinkingofotherthings.

itwasnotuntilthemoreobviouseventsoccurredthatibegantosuspecttheworst.anironinthefreezer,clothesinthedishwasher,booksintheoven.otherthings,too.butthedayifoundherinthecarthreeblocksaway,cryingoverthesteeringwheelbecauseshecouldn'tfindherwayhome,wasthefirstdayiwasreallyfrightened.andshewasfrightened,too,forwhenitappedonherwindow,sheturnedtomeandsaid,"ohgod,what'shappeningtome?pleasehelpme."aknottwistedinmystomach,butidarednotthinktheworst.

sixdayslaterthedoctorsawherandbeganaseriesoftests.ididnotunderstandthemthenandidonotunderstandthemnow,butisupposeitisbecauseiamafraidtoknow.shespentalmostanhourwithdr.barnwell,andshewentbackthenextday.thatdaywasthelongestdayihaveeverspent.

finallyhecalledusbothintohisofficeandsatusdown.sheheldmyarmconfidently,butirememberclearlythatmyownhandswereshaking.

"i'msosorrytohavetotellyouthis,"dr.barnwellbegan,"butyouseemtobeintheearlystagesofalzheimer’s...”

thewordsechoedinmyhead:theearlystagesofalzheimer’s…

myworldspunincircles,andifelthergriptightenonmyarm.shewhispered,almosttoherself:"oh,noah...noah...”

andtearsstartedtofall.itisabarrendisease,asemptyandlifelessasadesert.itisathiefofheartsandsoulsandmemories.ididnotknowwhattosaytoherasshesobbedonmybosom,soisimplyheldherandrockedherbackandforth.

thedoctorwasgrim.hewasagoodman,andthiswashardforhim.hewasyoungerthanmyyoungest,andifeltmyageinhispresence.

werockedtoandfro,andallie,mydream,mytimelessbeauty,toldmeshewassorry.iknewtherewasnothingtoforgive,andiwhisperedinherear."everythingwillbefine,"iwhispered,butinsideiwasafraid.iwasahollowmanwithnothingtooffer.

irememberonlybitsandpiecesofdr.barnwell'scontinuingexplanation.

"it'sadegenerativebraindisorderaffectingmemoryandpersonality...thereisnocureortherapy...there'snowaytotellhowfastitwillprogress...itdiffersfrompersontoperson....iwishiknewmore....somedayswillbebetterthanothers....itwillgrowworsewiththepassageoftime....i'msorry..."

everyonewassorry.ourchildrenwerebrokenhearted,ourfriendswerescaredforthemselves.idon'trememberleavingthedoctor'soffice,andidon'trememberdrivinghome.mymemoriesofthatdayaregone,andinthismywifeandiarethesame.

ithasbeenfouryearsnow.sincethenwehavemadethebestofit,ifthatispossible.allieorganized,aswasherdisposition.shemadearrangementstoleavethehouseandmovehere.sherewroteherwillandsealedit.sheleftspecificburialinstructions,andtheysitinmydesk,inthebottomdrawer.ihavenotseenthem.andwhenshewasfinished,shebegantowrite.letterstofriendsandchildren.letterstobrothersandsiste

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